Tuesday, November 25, 2008

Slip away

My wonderful husband gave me a much needed break yesterday. I went to a relatively new coffee shop in Fairmont called the Serenity Cafe. Since the Book n Bean closed I've been looking for a place to hang out and I have finally found one. Only downfall is that they only have daytime hours. It was so nice to take time out of my normal routine and I know what a huge sacrifice it was for Justin so I am extra grateful.

At the beginning it was a bit strange because I knew I had an hour and a half just to myself. I was listening to some Jon Foreman on my Zune (also a present from hubby) and trying to slip away with God for awhile. There is something so wonderful about being completely uninterrupted with God. Yes, I have a daily quiet time with God at home but there is always the possibility of one of the girls waking up or some other distraction. I started writing down some of my favorite scripture passages and really focusing on what God was wanting me to hear. I am very grateful that I had a husband who sensed I needed this and humbled that I worship a God who meets me where I am at. I left with a new found sense of peace and hope and some clarity for my purpose in life.

Wednesday, November 19, 2008

Rahab moment

I love being a mother. I must admit however, that I have always admired (sometimes envied) the women who are flexible and patient. There are so many ways that those two qualities are necessary when raising children that I sometimes wonder if I have any business being a mother at all. At the moment both of my girls have very different interests and don’t seem satisfied with sharing mommy. Fights ensue, tempers flair and poor attitudes are prevalent. I’ve definitely been in a rut for the past few weeks and know that my children’s behavior is a reflection of my own poor attitude.

I am easily frustrated and often angry over the littlest things. I know my downfall is that in the moment I don’t choose to act upon the truth I know. I know my children are gifts from God and He uniquely created me to parent them. I know they are growing fast and they will soon be more than just my own. I know I only get one shot at this and that it requires effort and hard work. I also know that God is ready for me to call on Him to help me deal with any situation that may arise. Why then do I not call on Him more often?

Over the past few days when a poor attitude has won out over a Godly perspective, even then God has been speaking love to me. I’ve been reminded that when God used Rahab she was not found with a neat and tidy life, a life I often strive to obtain by my own efforts. She was used in the midst of her sin and in the way God found her. God turned her heart to that of a worshiper when she allowed Him to and our lives have been blessed because of her obedience in the moment. So here I am in my own selfishness, my own rut, my own Rahab moment admitting that I need God. I need Him to fill every area of my life so that I may be changed. I’ll let you know how my in the moment choices improve.

Monday, November 3, 2008

Blogging

Well, this is the first time I have ever written a blog. I am so excited to share my exciting, mundane, inspirational, funny stories and everything in between. I guess I could start by explaining the title of my blog. For those of you who don't know much about music you may not recognize the word cadence or even if you have heard it you might not know what it means. The cadence is the driving rhythm of the music. I want more than anything to have God be the driving force in my life. I want to match my life to the rhythm of Christ in everything I do. I want to be part of Gods eternal and most beautiful song. So welcome to the journey of my life and my addition to this song.