Monday, June 2, 2014

God's Pen

"When we trust our lives to the hand and pen of an unseen but ever-present God, he will write our lives into His story and every last one of them will turn out to be a great read. With a grand ending. And not just in spite of those catastrophes. Often because of them. Don't just wait and see. Live and see." Beth Moore ~ Esther



Those words jumped off the page at me this morning at the close of my day one study of Esther (Beth Moore ~ Esther, It's Though Being a Woman). As the author and perfecter of my faith (see Hebrews 12:2) God is writing my life into His story. I find both freedom and the space to dream within that truth. Freedom that my life has great meaning but at the same time I'm not required to have it all figured out. Dreams are awakening in me again, dreams that haven't had space to develop in quite some time.

My prayer this morning reads, "Lord, I pray for this new day, this week, this season. My weaknesses will abound and surface everyday. I am aware of this in myself and those I live with. With your help I won't get stuck condemning myself or those I love for these weaknesses but instead I will choose to lean on You despite them."

At the start of this summer I am not afraid to take inventory of the events of the past year. I'm not shying away from the emotions, fears, struggles and pain that have been written into my story. I will never attain health by denying, ignoring or escaping reality. I truly want to "live and see" the unfolding story of God's grace and love in my life and the lives of those around me. Today, I am holding on to God, His truth and His love. The story He is writing is worth living out and I am clinging to Him and the "grand ending" His has in mind.

The new David Crowder song "I Am" has been my declaration as of late. I am holding on.